Ladies!
Please help explain to me why we do this to ourselves?
We totally misunderstand the saying and scripture ‘God will not give you more than you can bare.’ (1 Corinthians 10:13)
For some baffling reason, we see this passage of scripture as some sort of spiritual mathematical equation like this:
God will NOT actually = ADD
give you MORE = to the power of (go on, throw whatever number you like in there, make it interesting!)
Than = < Greater than
you can BARE
Our hope, with this ridonkulous estimation, is that God will hopefully, somewhere down the road, hopefully before the edge of the cliff, stop and rescue us like we know only He can.
But unfortunately all we have done is discover the formula for:
- Internal
- Emotional
- Spiritual
- Phyiscal
- COMBUSTION
This is where I have been for a long time. BURNT ALL THE WAY OUT.
No flames left on me, just smoke wondering aimlessly up to the heavens.
I’m quite a passionate and creative person. God seems to give me great ideas and initiatives, but in this current climate of my life I am unable to fully execute them and this causes frustration to overwhelm me.
So instead of being logical (which funnily enough I am lol) I decide I can do al things through Christ which strengthens me.
(I can just imagine God pulling up a chair with popcorn and a tango ice blast to watch this show I’m about to put on)
- So I work part time.
- I volunteer at my local church doing admin, praise & worship, planning events, sometimes children’s church.
- I am a single parent, so when I come home, I am the only one to do take care of our home. Washing, cleaning, cooking, taking care of and spending time with the kids, actually successfully remembering to manage and pay all the bills, pay groceries lest we starve.
- I just want us to have a good life, maybe even an amazing one, just maybe.
Well shame on me, the rubber finally met the road last year. The strain broke me. My mind had given up but my body had no other choice but to go on. EXHAUSTION. my mental tyres were bald and before I knew it, I’d blown out at the side of the road.
But why did I do this to myself in the first place?
What is this inherent need to do more then we can or even have to?
When does positive thinking become dangerous?
When does being organised become imbalanced?
When and where do you draw the line?
What do you do with all the ideas you have but no one else to bring them to life? but you’re tired, burnt out, worn out and just straight MASH UP!
I guess this is the part where I cast all my cares on Him – God. The only one who’s shoulders are strong enough to carry my every burden. There are days when that statement doesn’t comfort me. When I so badly want to fulfil my dreams and I get disappointed in God that He didn’t make a way for me or should I say MY WAY for me. There are days when that statement does give me joy. Knowing I’m never alone and that when the time is right I will be able to accomplish all of dreams and bring to life all the ideas and maybe even better ones then what I have thought of so far.
CONTENTMENT is key! It diffuses the bomb that is STRIFE and allows us to see clearly on a daily basis some of the wonderful things we already have in out life that we would have so easily missed. Understanding that where we are right now is only for a particular amount of time, but whilst we are here, we might as well enjoy every moment of it!
Matthew 25:23
“The master said ‘Well done, faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate!”
Kim xoxo
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